This post is probably the most personal from the Calvert Trust Series. I knew when I signed up for the discovery weekend that I would discover whether or not I would be able to do the zip wire.
I’d already had a tough morning. We’d been on the climbing wall and whilst I’m happy to climb, abseiling back down terrifies me. It stems from an activity week I had whilst at college. I was less adventurous than I am now. I don’t remember the instructors but looking back I think they had little patience with a group of 16-18 yos. I failed to trust them and would not lean back so I spent most of my abseil bump bump bumping down the rock face – not a great experience.
The Calvert Trust instructors were different, although they have to dedicate much of their time to people who had physical disabilities to deal with and I found myself battling with my own emotional disabilities. My inner self talk was convincing me that abseiling was not a great idea. I did it, but getting caught up in my own emotions resulted in me having less attempts and I couldn’t quite reach the top because I knew anything I climbed I’d have to come back down again.
Letting go can be really difficult at times.
So in the afternoon, I faced the Zip Wire. I watched 6 other people go down it, roped up, secure, some seated, some standing, and me, not knowing if I was even going to attempt it or not. In the end I decided to talk back to my self talk. One voice telling me I didn’t have to do it, the other reminding myself that if I could stand up in front of 300 strangers and deliver stand up comedy then this little Zip Wire would be a breeze.
I went for it. Letting go was the hardest thing ever. I bit my lip (literally) and allowed my feet to lift from the ground, the zip wire did the rest. Now as a fading memory I can’t recall what scared me so much – I think it was the unknown elements. How would I feel?
Letting go can be really hard, especially when we’re stepping into the unknown, but often the thought of doing something is worse than the action. I now have 2 things to remind me that I am capable of stepping out of my comfort zone, performing stand up and now zip wires.
What stops you letting go?
Whether it’s big or small, letting can of an idea, a dream, a thought, can be really tough. If there’s something you’d like to let go of so that you can move on and achieve, give Carolyn a call on 07714 216388 today so book your free consultation.